I am L I V I N G for Instagram lately. A lot of people say that Instagram causes depression. O…kay? I guess it’s like, when you look at other people’s pictures on Instagram, you compare yourself to them, and comparison is the thief of joy, therefore Instagram[…]
Tag: life update
Currently… in June 2019
FEELING: Drained. Drained! I started this month with unbearable allergies. Taking Lexapro, an SSRI, for depression/anxiety. A painful colposcopy and biopsy. The bizarre balance between feeling better due to meds and yet more anxious due to my health scare has been DRAINING! Luckily, the biopsy came back negative!!! But I basically[…]
Roommates Are Basically The Same Thing As Poltergeists
DON’T GET ME WRONG: I LOVE MY ROOMMATES. Okay, “love” is a strong word. I definitely prefer my roommates over most other roommates I’ve ever had in my adult life. Do I wish I wasn’t forced to consider crapping in a Tupperware on a weekly basis? Sure. Nobody’s[…]
🎶 Don’t Stop Me Now 🎶
I’m one of those people who thrives on being busy. If I’m allowed to rest for too long, I fall into a depression and stop taking care of myself (see: wearing the same sweatsuit and not showering for 5 days straight while living off of mayonnaise sandwiches and frozen microwave dinners).[…]
Currently… in November 2018
FEELING: Incredulous that it’s almost the end of the year. I mean, it’s NOVEMBER! 2019 is right around the corner! Is it just me, or do the years go by faster now than they ever did before? Work has been SO BUSY the past two months! . WATCHING: I feel like I always find a[…]
Currently… in October 2018
FEELING: SO OPTIMISTIC. And nostalgic, but in that “look how far I’ve come” kind of way. My life was turned completely upside-down on this day last year. Right now, I’m working two jobs that I love, living in the most fabulous apartment, dating someone who adores me and who is so easy to spend time with,[…]
Currently… in August 2018
FEELING: SWEATY. This summer is HOT, HOT, HOT! I mean, yeah, duh, global warming and all that. The humidity in NYC is, as it is every summer, occasionally unbearable! I saw people PUKING from heat the other day. It’s brutally intense! As a result, I’ve been mostly a homebody this[…]
Currently… in June 2018
FEELING: Excited. Yes, excited! It sort of feels like, overall, everything has been falling into place for me lately. I’ve been working hard, saving up, keeping going. You know, six months ago, if you told me that I’d be in this place by summer, I doubt I would have believed[…]
Hey! (What’s Going On)
Somebody once told me, “don’t give away your brilliance for free.” Woah! Not that I’m claiming to be “brilliant,” here! But it stuck with me. So I’ve been holding back here, because of a weird, vague fear of putting my best stuff out there on the vulnerable *I*n*t*eR*n*e*t, and having[…]
February Kicked My Ass
February is just a joke anyway, isn’t it? I mean, you’re in this shitty January doldrums and then Valentine’s Day pounces on you out of nowhere! Next thing you know, it’s like “Wow, can you believe it’s MARCH NEXT WEEK???” No, I can’t. And not just because I’ve been[…]
Wanted: Instagram Bae
Many, many months ago, my former therapist asked me to make a list of qualities that I want in a hypothetical future partner. Many, many months ago, the list looked a lot like this: “1. some 😭 one 😭 who 😭 won’t 😭 hurt 😭 me 😭😭😭…” But it’s been many, many months since then, and I’ve given it a lot of[…]
The Walls Have Ears
I didn’t realize how LOUD I AM until I moved in with roommates. My roommates are AWESOME. They’re very cool. And chill. And quiet. SO QUIET! I never EVER hear ANYTHING at ANY time of the day. They’re great! They’re WONDERFUL! No, the problem is me. I’m afraid[…]
Fixing A Hole
I wrote over 400 words in this draft. Then I erased it all. Call this “Take Two.” I’m very proud of myself for writing more in this blog. There was a time, not too long ago (OCTOBER 2017) when I couldn’t even fathom stringing two words together. I was like,[…]
The Kind Of Cold That Never Really Goes Away
Well, I’ve finally got it. My boyfriend had it first: sinus and cough and general misery. I got a glimpse of it last week: I hit a high fever (for me) of 98.1, when I usually run a cool 97.0 — but I felt like I was sweating and flushed.[…]
My Third Time At Burning Man CHANGED Me — But For The Better or the Worse???
(Photo by Becki Heller) It was my third time at Burning Man. I wasn’t supposed to come back this insufferable. So, you hear all the clichés about youths going to Burning Man and coming back changed. I don’t think I really changed all that much after my first burn, to be honest! Maybe[…]
Angry Birds
And at first it was cute, but now, I’m afraid in my own home. So I might have mentioned on social media (Twitter, probably, appropriately enough) that a family of small birds has built a nest underneath my kitchen window. I was so excited to have “new neighbors” and[…]
Good News! YOU Think You’re Helping
Wow it’s FRIDAY AGAIN?!? I really can’t believe it! Maybe the “holiday” messed me up into thinking it couldn’t possibly be Friday already. I put “holiday” in quotes because I’ve been working every single day since last you heard from me, except for the Fourth, which I spent having a raging[…]
Currently… in June 2017
FEELING: Strangely optimistic. Last month got rough, and it felt like there was just negative energy everywhere, but maybe that was just hitting rock bottom, because I’m entering this month with the feeling like we’ve got nowhere to go but UP! . WATCHING: Lots of YouTube — I’d love recommendations[…]
Good News! At Least The Tardigrades Will Survive
Last week came in like a lion, and it’s going out like a lamb! It’s June, now. Holy crap. I completely didn’t see this month coming. #Sad? As you can see from my photo above, I went to the MoMA this week after my therapy session! This one is[…]
I Say Hey, What’s Going On?
Well, I disappeared! I hate when really consistent bloggers just up & “disappear” on me, and I always take it personally (HA!). If you took my absence personally and demand to know where I’ve been when I’m not blogging, here’s what’s going on: Last weekend, I hopped on[…]