FEELING: Drained. Drained! I started this month with unbearable allergies. Taking Lexapro, an SSRI, for depression/anxiety. A painful colposcopy and biopsy. The bizarre balance between feeling better due to meds and yet more anxious due to my health scare has been DRAINING! Luckily, the biopsy came back negative!!! But I basically[…]
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Currently… in May 2019
FEELING: Ugh. I am going. through. it. I noticed myself starting to go downhill last month, so I scheduled an appointment to see my general practitioner (primary care provider?) and instead saw a new doctor at my usual clinic (whom I liked a lot more? He let me talk[…]
🎶 Don’t Stop Me Now 🎶
I’m one of those people who thrives on being busy. If I’m allowed to rest for too long, I fall into a depression and stop taking care of myself (see: wearing the same sweatsuit and not showering for 5 days straight while living off of mayonnaise sandwiches and frozen microwave dinners).[…]
Currently… in April 2019
FEELING: Strangely reinvigorated! I was very busy, and then I wasn’t, and I’m slowly (without putting a lot of pressure on myself) getting my life together in my downtime. Going to the dentist. Touching up my roots. Washing my sheets and blankets. I have a LOT of blankets, ok,[…]
Currently… in March 2019
FEELING: Stressed and so #Blessed! I’ve been very busy at the studio this past month, and I *love* being busy! I’ve been having a lot of pain in my back and shoulders, but I made it a point to spend a day with my boyfriend at The Met and we ended[…]
Currently… in February 2019
FEELING: Well, honestly, I’ve lost the last week and a half to being very, very sick. It started with that achy feeling in my bones, then turned into a fever that lasted for about a week, and now I have this lingering very wet deep chest cough. It really does feel like[…]
Currently… in January 2019
FEELING: Ahem, WordPress. Annoyed at this weird change? I legiterally have no idea what I’m doing, I just pray to sweet Satan that this post makes it out of the gates in readable format. Um, I’m okay. Feeling my grip on sanity loosen ever-so-slightly now that I’m not working regularly, and[…]
Currently… in December 2018
FEELING: Must I say it? “INCREDULOUS that the year is already over!!!” November was a hard one. Tours and work busy, then slow, then TOO BUSY. I mean, this post is 7 days late because I simply haven’t had the time, and I don’t think I took any selfies this[…]
Currently… in November 2018
FEELING: Incredulous that it’s almost the end of the year. I mean, it’s NOVEMBER! 2019 is right around the corner! Is it just me, or do the years go by faster now than they ever did before? Work has been SO BUSY the past two months! . WATCHING: I feel like I always find a[…]
Currently… in October 2018
FEELING: SO OPTIMISTIC. And nostalgic, but in that “look how far I’ve come” kind of way. My life was turned completely upside-down on this day last year. Right now, I’m working two jobs that I love, living in the most fabulous apartment, dating someone who adores me and who is so easy to spend time with,[…]
Currently… in September 2018
FEELING: Purposeful. I’m pretty busy now, but I am reaping the rewards of all my hard work and I’m absolutely loving it. Things have been a little hectic and I can’t lie, Leo season was bringing PLENTY of drama and I’m kind of happy to be in nice, organized, Virgo[…]
Currently… in August 2018
FEELING: SWEATY. This summer is HOT, HOT, HOT! I mean, yeah, duh, global warming and all that. The humidity in NYC is, as it is every summer, occasionally unbearable! I saw people PUKING from heat the other day. It’s brutally intense! As a result, I’ve been mostly a homebody this[…]
Currently… in July 2018
FEELING: Overall? Secure. “SECURE,” y’all!!! Do you have any idea how significant that word is? That’s INCREDIBLE. I can’t remember the last time I felt SECURE, okay? Maybe like, 2014. I’M DEAD SERIOUS. I sought a word for how good I’m feeling, and the one that summed it up[…]
Currently… in June 2018
FEELING: Excited. Yes, excited! It sort of feels like, overall, everything has been falling into place for me lately. I’ve been working hard, saving up, keeping going. You know, six months ago, if you told me that I’d be in this place by summer, I doubt I would have believed[…]
Currently… in May 2018
FEELING: Lots better. Lots better. I had one truly amazing therapy session and also worked almost every day of the past month, and that changed a lot for me. I went from agonizing over feeling “lazy” when I wasn’t working, to realizing that there are ebbs and flows, and[…]
Currently… in April 2018
FEELING: Deep in the throes of PMS + Mercury retrograde + depression, FUN. Fun fun fun. It’s really messed me up, and the endlessly cold and grey weather doesn’t help. I’m struggling to see a light at the end of the tunnel or any hope that things will change as I feel[…]
Currently… in February 2018
FEELING: Well. Today — February 1st — I had a MASSIVE therapy session where I got a lot of HUGE things off my chest, and I feel, like, relieved. January was a huge roller coaster, and I was mostly going it completely alone. I feel like I’ve finally accepted that 1)[…]
Currently… in January 2018
FEELING: INCREDULOUS. That it is. 2018. How is this even possible? I know that time is a construct, but this construct feels imPOSSIBLE! Wow, who would have thought? I have to say, I am actually happier now than I thought I could possibly be, back in 2017? I’m ready[…]
You See I’ve Forgotten — Is It Green, or It’s Blue?
They say that some people are born leaders, which implies that some people are born followers. I, my friends, am a born follower. I joked at work, while listening to a podcast about Charles Manson, that if someone told me I was pretty and asked me to join their cult (Manson’s[…]
Currently… in December 2017
FEELING: SO READY for 2017 to be OVER. LOL but don’t @ me if it takes me a while to get used to writing “2018” on things! I’m in a very “letting things go” frame of mind, at the moment. I feel like I’ve come through a lot of[…]