FEELING: Really down. I just got dumped two days ago, and it hit me really hard. I don’t know if it’s the season, or if I’m really in a rut, but nothing about what I’m doing right now feels right. My job is getting on my nerves, I’m tired of working hard and spending all my money on rent, and I’m sick of being isolated. I miss my family and I have no friends. I need to make a change.
WATCHING: Farscape! It’s so weird and cute! It’s like Battlestar Galactica – with Muppets!
READING: Existentialism and Human Emotion by Jean-Paul Sartre. Yeah, it’s pretty long-winded, but I enjoy letting him ramble around to his point!
THINKING ABOUT: Futility of life, relationships…
EATING: Lots of tea, gluten-free cheesecake, buckeyes and coffee, while I was home for Christmas! At home, apples and oranges and carrots. And more tea.
LOOKING FORWARD TO: Warmer weather, trying new things, having nothing to lose.
MAKING ME HAPPY:
Not much besides tea, knitting, dyeing my hair funky colours, Farscape
, and curling up in bed at night with some soft music playing. I know that’s pretty sad, but that’s the reality at this moment.