FEELING: Nominally better, in general. My RN who prescribes my Escitalopram straight-up DOUBLED my dose for the duration of…. *gestures around at the fuckery* THIS. It is … not sucky. The other day I was blissed-out watching Nadiyas Time to Eat on Netflix and I was so happy to see her holding[…]
Category: life
Currently… in April 2020
dont @ me, this photo was taken last month before the world ended and we all had to go inside. FEELING: Next question. . WATCHING: Ok lets be real — the only way I know what day it is is by which TV show aired last night, so[…]
2020 Vision
Wow, what a year this has been! Not so different from last year, and yet, so much has changed. Me abandoning this blog, for one thing. Is “blog guilt” real? Because I think i’s real. It feels so real! To be honest, I haven’t stepped through the Blog Door of my brain[…]
Currently… in December 2019
FEELING: Like I’m taking a breath at last! After a good six months of steady, nonstop, deadline-pushing work, I’ve kind of got a little more breathing room in my schedule. The only problem is, it’s made me kind of miss work! Like, now that tours are slowing down, there’s[…]
Currently… in November 2019
FEELING: Starting to relax — starting to. I’ve recently gone from consistent 12-hour days to more routine 8-hour days at work. Still doing tours on weekends, but I’m trying to eke out a better work-life balance for myself. I’m feeling needed and inspired, which is good. . WATCHING: I[…]
Currently… in October 2019
FEELING: Kinda overwhelmed? I’ve been working at a different studio for most of the month, a studio that’s over an hour away from my home, and the commute was killing me. How do people do it? I’ve also been having stomach problems randomly and repeatedly all month (a month which has flown by, honestly!), which[…]
Currently… in September 2019
FEELING: Amazingly, a little bit more balanced! A few weekends of minimal tours/responsibilities combined with a trend of getting home from my weekday job by 7pm has left me feeling like I’m just the tiniest bit more in control of my life. You will recall, of course, that my summer had[…]
Balance
Ok, after complaining incessantly about being busy and basically abandoning my blog, I’m seeking balance. Because I don’t want to ABANDON my blog. BUT, I can’t exactly pre-schedule blogs to post 3x a week either. That was feasible when I could write blog posts during my free time. Now, I’m all[…]
What Am I Doing With My Life???
Oh damn – it’s been a while! But don’t I always disappear on you during Leo season? I think it was two months ago, maybe three months ago, that I set up a whole bunch of blog posts to publish automatically while I was busy. Verrrryyyyyy busyyyyyy. And those have run out, like,[…]
Busy-ness is BOOMING
So, fun thing: When it rains, it pours. I’ve been mentioning in my past three “currently” posts that I’ve picked up another job, which means I’ve been basically working 7 days a week for at least two months now. Pretty much every blog post that’s been published over[…]
Currently… in August 2019
FEELING: Uh, overwhelmed? I can’t believe it’s August already! July went by in a FLASH! I was working 3 jobs and pet-sitting for literally half the month. My only weekend off came about due to a DANGEROUS heat wave. And then I turned 35 yesterday! SHEESH! I love being[…]
35
THIS. YEAR. Honestly, not a lot has changed, but it feels like everything has changed. I picked up an extra job, and developed abnormal changes in my routine PAP smear, and started taking Escitalopram. That alone feels like such a huge and monumental shift. And that was just in like, the[…]
Felt Cute, Might Delete Later
First, the history: According to KnowYourMeme.com, the “Feeling Cute Might Delete Later” Meme has been around since January 2017. At least, in some form. That’s more than two years! If you wanna feel real old, that was the month and year that Tr*mp was inaugurated as president. So, in emotional years, this meme[…]
Success
What if success is by how much you ACCOMPLISH, but how much you ENJOY??? I type into my phone as I eat a burrata and a Prosecco for dinner at my favorite NYC restaurant of 2011, Saggio. Motown plays on the PA, the air conditioning is cool but not[…]
The Worst Bathroom In New York City
Ok so, if you’ve been reading my blog faithfully over the years, you’ll know that I have some opinions on public bathrooms. Many opinions on public bathrooms. So please, don’t misunderstand me: I love public bathrooms. Every time my query “do you have a bathroom I could use?” is met with a “Yes!”, I am grateful for[…]
But I Can’t Go Anymore
Every now and then, I’m hit with a pang of longing for a special place. Not necessarily a wanderlust, although these places are usually far away from where I am now. It’s a craving for a place that was familiar to me. None of these places were “mine,” but[…]
Colposcopy
When I got the call from the doctor — that I’d had abnormal changes in my routine pap smear — I felt the wind knocked out of me. I trembled. I was so terrified. It took me a whole week to track down an appointment to get a colposcopy, an invasive[…]
Subway = Elevator
A lot of visitors (read = tourists) feel very intimidated by the New York City subway system! I mean, maaaaaybe it has something to do with the fact that actual New Yorkers are endlessly complaining about it. I know it took me a year of living here before I felt fully[…]
My Heritage
Ok so when we were little kids in school, we learned the most terrifying thing about the Middle Ages. No, not the Plague! To me, the most terrifying this about feudalism was that, whatever class you were born into, that was your job for life. Basically, if your parents were farmers, you were a farmer.[…]
Pockets in Pajamas
People, we have a lot of fun on this blog. But now, I need to address a serious issue. We need pockets. In pajamas. And we need them. Yesterday. Well, specifically, we need them a month ago. It was around a month ago when I was doing laundry in my pajamas…[…]