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Currently… in April 2018
FEELING: Deep in the throes of PMS + Mercury retrograde + depression, FUN. Fun fun fun. It’s really messed me up, and the endlessly cold and grey weather doesn’t help. I’m struggling to see a light at the end of the tunnel or any hope that things will change as I feel like life keeps beating me…
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Currently… in February 2018
FEELING: Well. Today — February 1st — I had a MASSIVE therapy session where I got a lot of HUGE things off my chest, and I feel, like, relieved. January was a huge roller coaster, and I was mostly going it completely alone. I feel like I’ve finally accepted that 1) I am not perfect, and…
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Currently… in January 2018
FEELING: INCREDULOUS. That it is. 2018. How is this even possible? I know that time is a construct, but this construct feels imPOSSIBLE! Wow, who would have thought? I have to say, I am actually happier now than I thought I could possibly be, back in 2017? I’m ready to start 2018 with a…
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You See I’ve Forgotten — Is It Green, or It’s Blue?
They say that some people are born leaders, which implies that some people are born followers. I, my friends, am a born follower. I joked at work, while listening to a podcast about Charles Manson, that if someone told me I was pretty and asked me to join their cult (Manson’s M.O.), I totally would. I’d be like,…
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Currently… in December 2017
FEELING: SO READY for 2017 to be OVER. LOL but don’t @ me if it takes me a while to get used to writing “2018” on things! I’m in a very “letting things go” frame of mind, at the moment. I feel like I’ve come through a lot of #1) shock and subsequent #2)…
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Being Thankful in 2017
I think I can honestly say that 2017 was probably one of the worst years of my life. YAY, what an uplifting opening! Let’s examine the facts, though: Terrible breakup. My puppy died. Trump was “President.” My armpit psoriasis came back! My Grandma fell terribly ill. My life was moving backwards while…
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Currently… in November 2017
Well, hello. I guess it’s been awfully quiet around here, huh? Guess I might as well let the cat out of the bag: on October 1st, my boyfriend of 3 1/4 years dumped me. I hate that I’m “that girl” who gets her heart broken and completely shuts down, but, there you have it.…
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My Third Time At Burning Man CHANGED Me — But For The Better or the Worse???
(Photo by Becki Heller) It was my third time at Burning Man. I wasn’t supposed to come back this insufferable. So, you hear all the clichés about youths going to Burning Man and coming back changed. I don’t think I really changed all that much after my first burn, to be honest! Maybe I became a little more…
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Currently… in September 2017
FEELING: I’m not “over” Burning Man, yet. That was probably the most intense three weeks of my life, and I was so busy and alive during that time! One minute, you’re a bad-ass amazing survivalist, vital and thriving, pushing yourself past your limits and defying nature to have an amazing fucking time!!!!! and the…
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Currently… in August 2017
FEELING: Well, considering the fact that I’ve just returned from an epic (I think?) weekend of drinking too much and sleeping late, I honestly feel a little bit dazed! It’s the day after my birthday, so I’ve got a bit of post-birthday blues, but I can’t wait for Burning Man to hurry up and get here…
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Currently… in July 2017
FEELING: Excited, but wiped out. I’ve had long hours and lots going on, which is awesome, but I’m also totally beat. . WATCHING: Still lots of YouTube. And The Bachelorette! . LISTENING TO: Lots of podcasts at the studio: Sword and Scale for entertainment, Radiolab for edutainment, Risk for laughs! . READING: Oh no, another month I’m not reading anything!…
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Currently… in June 2017
FEELING: Strangely optimistic. Last month got rough, and it felt like there was just negative energy everywhere, but maybe that was just hitting rock bottom, because I’m entering this month with the feeling like we’ve got nowhere to go but UP! . WATCHING: Lots of YouTube — I’d love recommendations on vloggers who aren’t cookie-cutter…
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Currently… in May 2017
FEELING: Busy! I’m worried about my right hand, but you know something? I really handle “busy” very well. When I’m busy, I’m more motivated to get more things done. Are you that way, too? I mean, not always important things. Have you noticed that I’ve been blogging like, every day this week? And yesterday, I bought 24…
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Currently… in April 2017
FEELING: Well, tbh, I have the flu. The head/chest/cough kind! It’s deeply frustrating because I’m super busy with studio work, I’m working on exciting new projects, and the tours have been poppin’ off like wild lately! But you know me: I love having a purpose. Have you heard of ‘The Actor’s Cure’? It’s like,…
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Currently… in March 2017
FEELING: Excited and inspired. I’ve been working for the past …well, a little over a week… nonstop at the studio I was working at a few months ago. I love love love it. It’s so much fun helping out, and every day I get asked to do something that scares me: power tools, tiny details, complicated maneuvers……
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Currently… in February 2017
FEELING: Hmmmm where do I begin? So, my temporary period of employment has ended, which means back to square one. Since the Inauguration, I’ve been protesting every weekend. It’s hard to think about my own personal future when the future of the world feels closer to crisis than ever before. Distracted? Angry? Scared? Yet strangely…
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Currently… in January 2017
FEELING: Hopeful…hopeful! Do you know how many of these “currently” updates I’ve been wanting, waiting to say that hope had returned to my universe? . WATCHING: Woah, well, aside from the Netflix series I recently recommended, I watched Practical Magic the other day because Shelby over at Femnasty told me once that I looked like Nicole…
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Currently… in December 2016
FEELING: Knock knock! Who’s there? I’m still depressed. I get one more appointment with my therapist this year (2016) before I have to wait until 2017 for my insurance to authorize more visits. I’ve seen her once since the election and all I could do was cry and panic. My last appointment is midway through…
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Currently… in November 2016
FEELING: Completely numb. It’s funny, I read back over last month’s “Currently” post and remember how desperate and stressed out I felt. I feel like a week after I wrote that, things took a massive turn for the better, and things started looking hopeful, and then immediately plummeted back into terribly depressing territory. If October was…
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Currently… in October 2016
FEELING: Stressed. Stressed out about the job search, stressed out about money. Stressed about the election, watching everything in the world go wrong. It’s not a happy time, let’s be honest. WATCHING: I only just discovered Zoella, whose vlogs have been the white noise over which I’ve been doing job applications and writing assignments. After binge-watching the only…