Currently… in May 2020

  FEELING:  Nominally better, in general. My RN who prescribes my Escitalopram straight-up DOUBLED my dose for the duration of…. *gestures around at the fuckery* THIS. It is … not sucky. The other day I was blissed-out watching Nadiyas Time to Eat on Netflix and I was so happy to see her holding[…]

Currently… in April 2020

  dont @ me, this photo was taken last month before the world ended and we all had to go inside.   FEELING:  Next question. . WATCHING: Ok lets be real — the only way I know what day it is is by which TV show aired last night, so[…]

Currently… in December 2019

  FEELING:  Like I’m taking a breath at last! After a good six months of steady, nonstop, deadline-pushing work, I’ve kind of got a little more breathing room in my schedule. The only problem is, it’s made me kind of miss work! Like, now that tours are slowing down, there’s[…]

Currently… in November 2019

  FEELING:  Starting to relax — starting to. I’ve recently gone from consistent 12-hour days to more routine 8-hour days at work. Still doing tours on weekends, but I’m trying to eke out a better work-life balance for myself. I’m feeling needed and inspired, which is good. . WATCHING: I[…]

Currently… in October 2019

  FEELING:  Kinda overwhelmed? I’ve been working at a different studio for most of the month, a studio that’s over an hour away from my home, and the commute was killing me. How do people do it? I’ve also been having stomach problems randomly and repeatedly all month (a month which has flown by, honestly!), which[…]

Currently… in September 2019

  FEELING:  Amazingly, a little bit more balanced! A few weekends of minimal tours/responsibilities combined with a trend of getting home from my weekday job by 7pm has left me feeling like I’m just the tiniest bit more in control of my life. You will recall, of course, that my summer had[…]

Currently… in August 2019

  FEELING:  Uh, overwhelmed? I can’t believe it’s August already! July went by in a FLASH! I was working 3 jobs and pet-sitting for literally half the month. My only weekend off came about due to a DANGEROUS heat wave. And then I turned 35 yesterday! SHEESH! I love being[…]

35

  THIS.   YEAR.   Honestly, not a lot has changed, but it feels like everything has changed. I picked up an extra job, and developed abnormal changes in my routine PAP smear, and started taking Escitalopram. That alone feels like such a huge and monumental shift. And that was just in like, the[…]

Currently… in July 2019

  FEELING:  Busy! As soon as I got a new gig, things picked up at my regular job, which meant double the work! I’ve basically gone from zero to a million. I’m so glad I write and schedule my blog posts, like, 3 weeks in advance!! . WATCHING: My latest “noise in the background”[…]

Currently… in June 2019

  FEELING:  Drained. Drained! I started this month with unbearable allergies. Taking Lexapro, an SSRI, for depression/anxiety. A painful colposcopy and biopsy. The bizarre balance between feeling better due to meds and yet more anxious due to my health scare has been DRAINING! Luckily, the biopsy came back negative!!! But I basically[…]

Currently… in May 2019

  FEELING:  Ugh. I am going. through. it. I noticed myself starting to go downhill last month, so I scheduled an appointment to see my general practitioner (primary care provider?) and instead saw a new doctor at my usual clinic (whom I liked a lot more? He let me talk[…]

🎶 Don’t Stop Me Now 🎶

  I’m one of those people who thrives on being busy. If I’m allowed to rest for too long, I fall into a depression and stop taking care of myself (see: wearing the same sweatsuit and not showering for 5 days straight while living off of mayonnaise sandwiches and frozen microwave dinners).[…]

Currently… in April 2019

  FEELING:  Strangely reinvigorated! I was very busy, and then I wasn’t, and I’m slowly (without putting a lot of pressure on myself) getting my life together in my downtime. Going to the dentist. Touching up my roots. Washing my sheets and blankets. I have a LOT of blankets, ok,[…]

Currently… in March 2019

  FEELING:  Stressed and so #Blessed! I’ve been very busy at the studio this past month, and I *love* being busy! I’ve been having a lot of pain in my back and shoulders, but I made it a point to spend a day with my boyfriend at The Met and we ended[…]

Currently… in February 2019

  FEELING:  Well, honestly, I’ve lost the last week and a half to being very, very sick. It started with that achy feeling in my bones, then turned into a fever that lasted for about a week, and now I have this lingering very wet deep chest cough. It really does feel like[…]

Currently… in January 2019

FEELING:  Ahem, WordPress. Annoyed at this weird change? I legiterally have no idea what I’m doing, I just pray to sweet Satan that this post makes it out of the gates in readable format. Um, I’m okay. Feeling my grip on sanity loosen ever-so-slightly now that I’m not working regularly, and[…]

Currently… in December 2018

  FEELING:  Must I say it? “INCREDULOUS that the year is already over!!!” November was a hard one. Tours and work busy, then slow, then TOO BUSY. I mean, this post is 7 days late because I simply haven’t had the time, and I don’t think I took any selfies this[…]

Currently… in November 2018

  FEELING:  Incredulous that it’s almost the end of the year. I mean, it’s NOVEMBER! 2019 is right around the corner! Is it just me, or do the years go by faster now than they ever did before? Work has been SO BUSY the past two months! . WATCHING: I feel like I always find a[…]

Change in the Weather

  I say this ALL THE TIME. But I say it the most when the seasons change.   In New York City, it is SUMMER until the MINUTE that it is WINTER. And it is WINTER until the MINUTE that it is SUMMER.   Theydies and Gentlethem, Welcome to Winter.[…]

Currently… in October 2018

  FEELING:  SO OPTIMISTIC. And nostalgic, but in that “look how far I’ve come” kind of way. My life was turned completely upside-down on this day last year. Right now, I’m working two jobs that I love, living in the most fabulous apartment, dating someone who adores me and who is so easy to spend time with,[…]