Category: currently

  • Currently… in December 2019

    Currently… in December 2019

      FEELING:  Like I’m taking a breath at last! After a good six months of steady, nonstop, deadline-pushing work, I’ve kind of got a little more breathing room in my schedule. The only problem is, it’s made me kind of miss work! Like, now that tours are slowing down, there’s finally time to ENJOY giving…

  • Currently… in November 2019

    Currently… in November 2019

      FEELING:  Starting to relax — starting to. I’ve recently gone from consistent 12-hour days to more routine 8-hour days at work. Still doing tours on weekends, but I’m trying to eke out a better work-life balance for myself. I’m feeling needed and inspired, which is good. . WATCHING: I was really disappointed with the…

  • Currently… in October 2019

    Currently… in October 2019

      FEELING:  Kinda overwhelmed? I’ve been working at a different studio for most of the month, a studio that’s over an hour away from my home, and the commute was killing me. How do people do it? I’ve also been having stomach problems randomly and repeatedly all month (a month which has flown by, honestly!), which I’m worried about. . WATCHING:…

  • Currently… in September 2019

    Currently… in September 2019

      FEELING:  Amazingly, a little bit more balanced! A few weekends of minimal tours/responsibilities combined with a trend of getting home from my weekday job by 7pm has left me feeling like I’m just the tiniest bit more in control of my life. You will recall, of course, that my summer had been swirling to a mad…

  • Currently… in August 2019

    Currently… in August 2019

      FEELING:  Uh, overwhelmed? I can’t believe it’s August already! July went by in a FLASH! I was working 3 jobs and pet-sitting for literally half the month. My only weekend off came about due to a DANGEROUS heat wave. And then I turned 35 yesterday! SHEESH! I love being busy, because it means I…

  • Currently… in June 2019

    Currently… in June 2019

      FEELING:  Drained. Drained! I started this month with unbearable allergies. Taking Lexapro, an SSRI, for depression/anxiety. A painful colposcopy and biopsy. The bizarre balance between feeling better due to meds and yet more anxious due to my health scare has been DRAINING! Luckily, the biopsy came back negative!!! But I basically spent this entire month in…

  • Currently… in May 2019

    Currently… in May 2019

      FEELING:  Ugh. I am going. through. it. I noticed myself starting to go downhill last month, so I scheduled an appointment to see my general practitioner (primary care provider?) and instead saw a new doctor at my usual clinic (whom I liked a lot more? He let me talk about all of my concerns…

  • ? Don’t Stop Me Now ?

    ? Don’t Stop Me Now ?

      I’m one of those people who thrives on being busy. If I’m allowed to rest for too long, I fall into a depression and stop taking care of myself (see: wearing the same sweatsuit and not showering for 5 days straight while living off of mayonnaise sandwiches and frozen microwave dinners).   For the past four…

  • Currently… in April 2019

    Currently… in April 2019

      FEELING:  Strangely reinvigorated! I was very busy, and then I wasn’t, and I’m slowly (without putting a lot of pressure on myself) getting my life together in my downtime. Going to the dentist. Touching up my roots. Washing my sheets and blankets. I have a LOT of blankets, ok, it’s an undertaking!  . WATCHING:…

  • Currently… in March 2019

    Currently… in March 2019

      FEELING:  Stressed and so #Blessed! I’ve been very busy at the studio this past month, and I *love* being busy! I’ve been having a lot of pain in my back and shoulders, but I made it a point to spend a day with my boyfriend at The Met and we ended up having an incredibly beautiful…

  • Currently… in February 2019

    Currently… in February 2019

      FEELING:  Well, honestly, I’ve lost the last week and a half to being very, very sick. It started with that achy feeling in my bones, then turned into a fever that lasted for about a week, and now I have this lingering very wet deep chest cough. It really does feel like I spent the second half…

  • Currently… in January 2019

    Currently… in January 2019

    FEELING:  Ahem, WordPress. Annoyed at this weird change? I legiterally have no idea what I’m doing, I just pray to sweet Satan that this post makes it out of the gates in readable format. Um, I’m okay. Feeling my grip on sanity loosen ever-so-slightly now that I’m not working regularly, and I’ve come back from a…

  • Currently… in December 2018

    Currently… in December 2018

      FEELING:  Must I say it? “INCREDULOUS that the year is already over!!!” November was a hard one. Tours and work busy, then slow, then TOO BUSY. I mean, this post is 7 days late because I simply haven’t had the time, and I don’t think I took any selfies this past month aside from this…

  • Currently… in November 2018

    Currently… in November 2018

      FEELING:  Incredulous that it’s almost the end of the year. I mean, it’s NOVEMBER! 2019 is right around the corner! Is it just me, or do the years go by faster now than they ever did before? Work has been SO BUSY the past two months! . WATCHING: I feel like I always find a new trash reality show every…

  • Currently… in October 2018

    Currently… in October 2018

      FEELING:  SO OPTIMISTIC. And nostalgic, but in that “look how far I’ve come” kind of way. My life was turned completely upside-down on this day last year. Right now, I’m working two jobs that I love, living in the most fabulous apartment, dating someone who adores me and who is so easy to spend time with, healing a new tattoo (!!!!!),…

  • Currently… in September 2018

    Currently… in September 2018

      FEELING:  Purposeful. I’m pretty busy now, but I am reaping the rewards of all my hard work and I’m absolutely loving it. Things have been a little hectic and I can’t lie, Leo season was bringing PLENTY of drama and I’m kind of happy to be in nice, organized, Virgo season. I prefer to be…

  • Currently… in August 2018

    Currently… in August 2018

      FEELING:  SWEATY. This summer is HOT, HOT, HOT! I mean, yeah, duh, global warming and all that. The humidity in NYC is, as it is every summer, occasionally unbearable! I saw people PUKING from heat the other day. It’s brutally intense! As a result, I’ve been mostly a homebody this month. There’s places I wanna…

  • Currently… in July 2018

    Currently… in July 2018

      FEELING:  Overall? Secure. “SECURE,” y’all!!! Do you have any idea how significant that word is? That’s INCREDIBLE. I can’t remember the last time I felt SECURE, okay? Maybe like, 2014. I’M DEAD SERIOUS. I sought a word for how good I’m feeling, and the one that summed it up best was “SECURE.” I’m beside…

  • Currently… in June 2018

    Currently… in June 2018

      FEELING:  Excited. Yes, excited! It sort of feels like, overall, everything has been falling into place for me lately. I’ve been working hard, saving up, keeping going. You know, six months ago, if you told me that I’d be in this place by summer, I doubt I would have believed you. I am really happy…

  • Currently… in May 2018

    Currently… in May 2018

      FEELING:  Lots better. Lots better. I had one truly amazing therapy session and also worked almost every day of the past month, and that changed a lot for me. I went from agonizing over feeling “lazy” when I wasn’t working, to realizing that there are ebbs and flows, and the time I spend not…